10am- Breakfast: sausage, oatmeal, 2 clementines
feelings: I felt pretty satisfied with this meal, but I wanted to continue to eat. I had half of the oatmeal still left, and didn't want THAT, so I safely assumed that the reason that I wanted to keep eating wasn't hunger. The clementines are perfection right now. There are 10 left, so I will probably eat more later. I cooked the sausage and the oats on the stove, which made this feel more special than my usual breakfasts.
1pm- Lunch: Turkey, green bean casserole, cranberry sauce
feelings: Some of the last of the Thanksgiving meal leftovers! I love this kind of food. I wonder why there are so many foods that I really only allow myself to enjoy once a year. I almost never eat these foods outside of Thankgiving and Christmas, even though I love them a lot. I wonder if I could eat chips or pizza semi-annually some day? I wish that I didn't love those foods so much... Anyway, this was a good meal, but I feel a little stuffed. I think that I ate too quickly and also probably too soon after breakfast. It's hard to not constantly eat when I'm home alone. Why is that? Too much closet eating since Mom died? I think that may be it. Just a habit now.
3pm- Snack: bread and peanut butter, followed shortly by 1oz baggie of chips
feelings: This wasn't a binge, but I wasn't actually hungry. I just desired to be FULL. I wanted to eat until I was slightly uncomfortable. I don't know why. I do feel kind of inadequate and useless today, because it's my third day off in a row and the house is still a mess. I find myself wanting even more food an hour later, but I'm going to drink some water since I haven't had any yet, and I doubt that I'm actually hungry.
4:30pm- Snack: granola bar and yogurt
feelings: I was not hungry. I feel shitty for continuing to eat knowing that it's not in response to hunger. It's because I'm bored, and procrastinating housework. It's after 5 now, and I need to clean the kitchen, the bathroom, and the dining room before I go to bed. Really, those three rooms will take like an hour to clean, so why am I putting it off? Sigh. I also need to shower. I'm hoping that soon I will get up, do my housework then shower.
7:00pm- Snack: popcorn
feelings: I finished my housework and ate the popcorn while watching Netflix. I was hungry and probably should have had an actual meal instead of popcorn. Ate to satisfaction. Feeling happy with this food choice.
8:45pm- Dinner: chicken alfredo
feelings: Full. I think that I ate too much today. Feeling a bit guilty. Wanting to make food rules for myself, wanting to diet, wanting to get back on My Fitness Pal and plan a week of meals. Must resist these dieting thoughts. Or not. A few food rules wouldn't be the end of the world...